House Maid

I am not feeling well but i am strong. Early in the morning, aku bangun dan bergegas ke dapur,masak secepat kilat untuk breakfast dan kemudian beralih ke halaman rumah. luasnya alam untuk dibersihkan,syukurlah ini hobi aku. agak penat juga menyapu daun2 kering di halaman rumah dan bakar semua sampah yang mencacatkan pemandangan. cepat juga siap.hehe.sumandak mesti kuat karaja di rumah.memalukan ada orang datang rumah semak semacam saja.Hihi. Lepas tu, sidai segala kain2 yang telah dicuci semalam.sengsara sungguh tiada air.Di kampung pun pandai tiada air juga.paip sumbat lor.Nasib baik ada sungai.Dalam keadaan kurang sihat petang semalam, daku pg sungai juga.nakal sangat :P itu cerita kemarin lah.
Sambung balik hari ini..nah..masih ada kudis pada lidah.tapi amazing, semalam2 demam gila.Syukur2..selesma tak jadi.camna aku nak pergi jalan2 tengok orang kawin ni dalam keadaan tak sihat. itu bukan poin akulah.sebenarnya aku tak sabar family kak2 balik.rindu sangat dengan anak2 buah yang dah tinggi lampai melebihi auntie dorang sorang ini. yala.sapalah aku.haha! Bahagia sangat bila dorang balik.hurmm..hari ini, aku cuti melatih budak2 berlakon di church.ramai pelakon cuti baa.so, cgu dia pun cutilah juga.makanya,aku ambil kesempatan on9 kejap.saja santai2. perut ini kenyang timadang..apalah nama buah ni kalo dalam bahasa melayu baku eaa?tarap?ouwww no..takkan nangka bulat.adeiii.lucu!hahaha!
Kompom la malam ni banyak benda aku kena masak..lauk pauk makan malam adussss bila lah maw retire keja dapur ni?? teringin sangat duduk goyang kaki tunggu orang hidang makanan kat rumah. alahai..tunggu ada orang kawin di rumah dulu.oppsss..!haha! kena layan karenah anak2 buah aku yang comel2 dan penurut semuanya. peace.sukaaa sangat2!! tak pe..aku suka sangat bila semua orang rumah happy.aku pun happy la.ada poblem pun, jgan tunjuk nanti just bagi orang lain down pula. Stercy is strong maaa!! FIGHT2!!!
~Semakin banyak kes accident mabuk2an di kampung ini..bila lah manusia maw bertaubat.malam semalam, majlis kawin orang ada lak orang gaduh2 buat hal sampai pengantin menangis. teruknya.manusia biasa..bila akan faham?? kesian juga pengantin 2.sabar2.yang penting bahagia kamurang kan. Tuhan maha adil :)
Baiklah sepertinya, tugas memanggil2 aku..nak cari tepung gandum lagi lepas ni. Maw masak sesuatu untuk anak2 buah malam nanti lepas dinner. Family abang pun nak datang..mesti rumah meriah gilaaa..auchhhhh!!tak sabarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!yesssss!

Doa seorang Puteri :P

< I HAVE MY EYES ON HIM > 

The Truth

I don't know what kind of this challenge. It is so hard and killing me slowly. I cannot accept for what had happened. But, life is precious and i am claiming for God's promises. No one understand. But God did. I do not believe , i am going to learn forgetting. am i doing a right decision? Someone please, tell me. Keep kneeling and praying hard for this matter..I need a miracle. Why should i have to face this great temptation? Just like my friends said , when u hurt so much then u'll blaming others. I'm  so sorry. I love him so much, but there's something we cannot change easily. Facebook is just to cover everything.  I just felt ashamed when they knows, i have this kind of problem. If you were me, are u still there to stand? Or you'll choose to walk one step forward? Now, there's a very2 big deal in my head. I think i know what to do. And i have been think for that thoroughly.There's nothing to worry about because I know The Lord will keep His promises :) 

Still remain

Anger vs My prince- O9 nOVEMBER 2012 

Why no one ever makes angry? We all know anger. We also know how it kills our inner peace. And forgiveness is a difficult thing to do so. To say everyone gets angry most of the time sounds like we have nothing to do with it. The truth acts as a mirror. We have become comfortable being uncomfortable, happy being unhappy. ANGER ALWAYS DESTROYS. Very true, Anger related with pain and problem. It’s a killer. It is one step forward from jealousy. I am saying this because, someone get mad to me. I made mistake to him, my beloved soul mate. I know I am wrong. And I ask for forgiveness. I am not on purpose. I am really not on purpose. I am helping my adopt family for wedding preparation. I am tired and a bit stress because my own mum lying on the bed in the hospital. I made a promise before with my adopt family that I’ll come for help for the wedding day. Suddenly, my mom admitted in a hospital. Can you imagine how I felt? I am not strong enough. In the same time, I made mistake to my beloved, someone who always walked by my side. I am so much pitiful.

When we see the cause then it’s give us a choice to stop creating it or continue creating it. The truth is you and only you are 100% responsible for what you think and feel at all times. I choose to keep console my heart. IT’S HARD TO BELIEVE when I am not in connection with him even just a minute. I did the right thing for my beloved mom. I choose to stay with her. I made a right decision for my adopt family. But, I made a mistake to my beloved. It is a Small thing but big effect. I am asking for forgiveness and hopefully I can move on without repeating the same mistake. I am so sorry for being so selfish during the day. It is a busy day and I can’t even realize how selfish I am. I AM SO SORRY DEAR. You can hate my mistake but u can’t hate me. I always trust that you can feel what I felt. I know I am wrong but I didn’t ask to change what’s wrong. I asked for forgiveness. Because we cannot change what’s wrong, we can do better and change what is bad in the future. I always trust your good heart to take care and concerned about me. Thank you so much.

I always trust his concerned on me. Certainly, he met me n come for me. He’s acting so professional like nothing happened. And I like the way he handle this small matter big effect. What a good feeling like flying through the sky! Thank you dear, I adore how you face you anger now. You can let it out just one touch and forget it after you speak it out. But then, I still on my life principal, there’s no reason to make revenge. No wonder,  Bestfriend’s love will never fade. 

Winter season in My Villa

Stolen from Uncle Google's album

You know why i cannot wait to go home? There's a winter season in my villa! haha! Oh gosh, i am so much imagining about AUSTRALIA, my favorite place to go for honeymoon. Haha! but,u have to trust me.There's a winter season in my villa ~ Winter season meant so much to me..My family, my niece, my nephew > cooking, playing and laughing and singing with them.That's what i called :Winter Season !! they're ALWAYS comfort and warm me in December. They fill up my Life. I cannot wait anymore. But i have to go to my adopt family's home. My adopt sister will get married this coming Saturday. Never mind. My Villa will always wait for me. I know they miss me so much. I miss them more.Huhu. I am thinking, what kind of food i should cook for home this season.Hurmm..every school holiday , i will have at least two new menu to cook for my home sweet home. I am not a great chef, but i love to cook and i love to hear them 2 give credit for me. Adudu..suke la sgt!haha! I cook with love <3 

Stercy's craziness.haha!

~ Stercy loves band!haha! I know, i won't boring during this holiday. I am ready to escort my bro's group band.Haha! Wedding is everywhere around my villa! i am thinking, i should practice some new songs to sing for. Aduh. Hopefully, i'll get some money to survive while i'm waiting for my allowance. I don't know how much will they pay for me. Sing for wedding day is better than i sing badly here in my campus. Just people around my villa knows my excitement. Singing for wedding day is so much different. You must bring yourself into the song to make it touching. While bridegroom walk step by step, holding hands together, you'll felt the song just like you wanna get married too! Hahah! Conclusion,  I sing to make money. ( malu minta belanja family ) haha! I HAVE TO LEARN MORE ABOUT SINGING.I HAVE TO IMPROVE MORE. I AM JUST AN ORDINARY ENTERTAINER IN MY SOUL :) BUT I HAVE THIS GOAL, I WILL PROVE SOMEDAY, TEACHER CAN DELIVER VARIETY KNOWLEDGE THROUGH SONG  :) 

 Ba, Wedding song to practice :Until You found me ( Solo ) & Selalu mencintai ( Duet with my brother > Belldin, he's So much better than me ) 

Hurmmm..IMPORTANT THING TO DO > you must have some exercise during this holiday season.I wanna make six packs!haha! I'll ask my sister to join m too.keteh.

Get Wise :P

Now i am packing my stuff.What a stuffy room now. haha! Never mind.I love to share a very good lesson for today. It is about " Get wise ". Yeahh, be open to everyone and everything. This is a good deed for me and for you. Make the effort not to judge or compare your self with anyone. Never. The moment we do any of these things in our mind will disturb your own thing and create an uncomfortable relation between u and the other. Finally, u get stress! Do something great.For me , i love to enjoy my hobbies when i am moody near to stress.Huh! Always look for what's wrong before who's wrong. Very true. Most people blaming others for something wrong.That's not the proper thing to do with :) My life taught me to face any crisis wisely. But then, i am just a human being. Sometimes, i am blaming others for their bad attitude. I know i cannot control another human being action.Hehe.Somtimes, i wonder why there's a worse people..i don't meant that i have no bad side :P but, i am thinking..why there's an annoying person..?( THIS IS BLAMING PART ). I know this world is suck. Hurmm..My high school teacher said, it's an inner stability, psychology :) 

just forget it. Let's have breakfast. I am starving:P 

Jealousy is a Killer

~Today, i am free.Free from messed up things. Free from campus stuffs. But still, i can't celebrate my freedom yet. I have so many unpack stuffs. I am getting sick of this.My head is crack when i saw my goods scattered everywhere, just like a store. It should be like that every sem.haha! Packing is compulSORY at all. Who wanna stay here alone ?
~A lesson  to remember today is about jealousy. My boyfriend said " Jealousy is a killer in a relationship " yeah, very true! There's a lesson behind the statement. Just have some private conversation. Thank you for being so understanding and i'll try my best to be the one who always keep my trust in u :P
Happy holiday!

Tomorrow's Song

Just for last paper tomorrow.I am struggling.Another uncomfortable part :(

Train Leaves at ?